if i had a second chance.. i would cherish her more when she used to be around, i would set things straight. i would keep trying to get to her. i would appreciate her more. i wouldn't give up and run away like a pussy. i won't say all the mean things to her. i would sincerely apologize to her for all the tears i made her shed. but now it's all gone.
i miss her.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
globalization and its effects
this post is probably intended for those who doesn't understand how it works with the linkage between foreign talents, globalization, trade and we as citizens.
as the economy is going through a recession that some governments or agencies are reporting will be worst off than the 1997 asian financial crisis, we've been hearing complains/rants from people that are mainly uneducated in the knowledge of how globalization and how foreign talents aids the economy in the bigger picture.
singapore is heavily dependent on exports and with that we rely mainly on multinational companies coming into singapore to setup be it manufacturing, research, export and so on for job creations in which for every 1 foreigner employed there must be 3 locals.
some industries or groups have shunned globalization partially due to factors like protecting the high profits yield in their respective industries due to lack of price competition from overseas competitors or groups protesting over foreigners snatching away their jobs.
but without competition there would never be improvements, reduced jobs, paying of goods at higher prices when they could be cheaper for the consumers in which this case the business owners gain while consumers loses out.
there is a reason why singapore's government are actively promoting singapore as a tourist destination for the reason that when foreigners spend their money in singapore the money spent gets circulated in the economy.
for example this australian comes to singapore and spend $20 on lunch. the $20 gets cut up into paying suppliers, employees, rental and profit which in turns circulate more for example suppliers paying their employees who in turn gets paid and gives part of the monthly pay to his wife for grocery shopping who in turns pays at a supermarket and goes on and on.
on singaporeans that are always whining and complaining about jobs being taken away from them by foreigners, notice that majority of the jobs that are taken up by them are the very ones that we shunned in the first place. toilet cleaners, dish washers, food court cleaners etc.
on a second note if we were to shut ourselves out from globalization, we would become no different from north korea.
because no trade would mean that no foreign investments are coming in which in turns means high unemployment, and of course even though singapore engages in abit of agriculture but it wouldn't be enough to support the entire population of 3.5m singaporeans(excluding 1m or so foreigners). without the basic needs such as food covered we need not talk about research and advance in technology, famine and diseases would kick in and we would all probably die easier but more painful, investments and returns from temasek and GIC wouldn't be possible as well and all in all singapore would start becoming a backward country which of course wouldn't be all that bad in my opinion. people wouldn't be so snobish and start having high unrealistic expectations and go back to the good old farming days like our forefather where respect for elders and the such is highly encouraged unlike our current society and not forgetting cheap cigarettes :)
as the economy is going through a recession that some governments or agencies are reporting will be worst off than the 1997 asian financial crisis, we've been hearing complains/rants from people that are mainly uneducated in the knowledge of how globalization and how foreign talents aids the economy in the bigger picture.
singapore is heavily dependent on exports and with that we rely mainly on multinational companies coming into singapore to setup be it manufacturing, research, export and so on for job creations in which for every 1 foreigner employed there must be 3 locals.
some industries or groups have shunned globalization partially due to factors like protecting the high profits yield in their respective industries due to lack of price competition from overseas competitors or groups protesting over foreigners snatching away their jobs.
but without competition there would never be improvements, reduced jobs, paying of goods at higher prices when they could be cheaper for the consumers in which this case the business owners gain while consumers loses out.
there is a reason why singapore's government are actively promoting singapore as a tourist destination for the reason that when foreigners spend their money in singapore the money spent gets circulated in the economy.
for example this australian comes to singapore and spend $20 on lunch. the $20 gets cut up into paying suppliers, employees, rental and profit which in turns circulate more for example suppliers paying their employees who in turn gets paid and gives part of the monthly pay to his wife for grocery shopping who in turns pays at a supermarket and goes on and on.
on singaporeans that are always whining and complaining about jobs being taken away from them by foreigners, notice that majority of the jobs that are taken up by them are the very ones that we shunned in the first place. toilet cleaners, dish washers, food court cleaners etc.
on a second note if we were to shut ourselves out from globalization, we would become no different from north korea.
because no trade would mean that no foreign investments are coming in which in turns means high unemployment, and of course even though singapore engages in abit of agriculture but it wouldn't be enough to support the entire population of 3.5m singaporeans(excluding 1m or so foreigners). without the basic needs such as food covered we need not talk about research and advance in technology, famine and diseases would kick in and we would all probably die easier but more painful, investments and returns from temasek and GIC wouldn't be possible as well and all in all singapore would start becoming a backward country which of course wouldn't be all that bad in my opinion. people wouldn't be so snobish and start having high unrealistic expectations and go back to the good old farming days like our forefather where respect for elders and the such is highly encouraged unlike our current society and not forgetting cheap cigarettes :)
Monday, December 29, 2008
5 years ago...emotions
something happened today as to the details i shall not elaborate further on it. it's the first time in my 21 years that i ever felt this way before. i felt totally useless like i couldn't give her the feeling that the guy did. i felt totally...devastated. i would have been called a pussy if anybody saw me in this state.
i tried to be calm and be strong, i tried i put on a strong front so as to make her feel more stable and secure but after hanging up i totally broke down the entire morning like a bitch. i guess i wasn't as tough as i expected to be.
human emotions are the very few things that seperates us from animals but it is also the thing that makes us weak and vulnerable to attacks from the inside of us like a trojan horse.
5 years ago i experienced the worst periods of my life. relationship issues,family issues and issues with friends all came down in the same period of time.
being the person i was back then i felt weak but i do not want to succumb easily to emotions hence i totally changed myself. my heart froze void of any emotions or sympathy of any sort. my mind was full of ruthless and treacherous thoughts willing to sacrifice ANYONE to get to the top and let nothing and no one stop me.
i told myself back then that emotions would be the only fatal blow from the back that will stop me so i should avoid seeking much human relations with people so as to protect myself.
i worked hard on it and became the person that i thought would be the perfect person to be.
over the years my heart softened and weakened at the age of 20 i fell for someone 1 year older my age and started to get all ...weak. and at the age of 21 i truly experienced what it is like to really love someone and wanting her to be happy and giving your all and your best.
but today just proved that everything 100% is just one sided and that just shows that i cannot even be compared to most of her guy friends in her heart. immediately i broke down cause i couldn't understand why when i already did my best in everything be it to show my devotion or my commitment.
i just hate myself now for not listening to the past me and for not being able to give her the feeling that the other guy is capable of.
i sincerely hope that she gets her true happiness and become a person with stronger character and better judgement of people as i decided that she would be the one and only person who will ever make me feel this way again.
i don't think that there would be much people reading this anyway and i decided that from now on i would work harder to become the person that would never ever succumb to weak feelings like these again.
the heart of frozen cracked ice block is back once more.
i tried to be calm and be strong, i tried i put on a strong front so as to make her feel more stable and secure but after hanging up i totally broke down the entire morning like a bitch. i guess i wasn't as tough as i expected to be.
human emotions are the very few things that seperates us from animals but it is also the thing that makes us weak and vulnerable to attacks from the inside of us like a trojan horse.
5 years ago i experienced the worst periods of my life. relationship issues,family issues and issues with friends all came down in the same period of time.
being the person i was back then i felt weak but i do not want to succumb easily to emotions hence i totally changed myself. my heart froze void of any emotions or sympathy of any sort. my mind was full of ruthless and treacherous thoughts willing to sacrifice ANYONE to get to the top and let nothing and no one stop me.
i told myself back then that emotions would be the only fatal blow from the back that will stop me so i should avoid seeking much human relations with people so as to protect myself.
i worked hard on it and became the person that i thought would be the perfect person to be.
over the years my heart softened and weakened at the age of 20 i fell for someone 1 year older my age and started to get all ...weak. and at the age of 21 i truly experienced what it is like to really love someone and wanting her to be happy and giving your all and your best.
but today just proved that everything 100% is just one sided and that just shows that i cannot even be compared to most of her guy friends in her heart. immediately i broke down cause i couldn't understand why when i already did my best in everything be it to show my devotion or my commitment.
i just hate myself now for not listening to the past me and for not being able to give her the feeling that the other guy is capable of.
i sincerely hope that she gets her true happiness and become a person with stronger character and better judgement of people as i decided that she would be the one and only person who will ever make me feel this way again.
i don't think that there would be much people reading this anyway and i decided that from now on i would work harder to become the person that would never ever succumb to weak feelings like these again.
the heart of frozen cracked ice block is back once more.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
lesser beings, influence and the remedy
what should someone do if he realises that he is surrounded by a bunch of lesser beings around him?
sometimes the best approach to this matter would be isolation. it can be best described like a illness, a contagious illness.
it/they can spread and influence you to be perhaps part of them and by the time you realise it, it would have been too late as you have already been integrated into one of them and their way of life that you would get too comfortable with it and by going against it would be like going against the norm.
lets give another simpler example for the lesser beings that might be reading this.
picture this, a classroom with a teacher and a bunch of students together. if the teacher said that "A" was the correct answer and all except one of the students agreed that "A" was the answer. the one smarter student knew that "B" was the correct answer instead of "A" but seeing that how so many people agreed on "A", that might influence him to believe otherwise that he is wrong and that he would eventually agree on "A" as well but with "B" as the correct answer on his mind.
this would be the basis on which my arguments lies. people influence one another not realising that they themselves might be wrong and the other party may actually be correct and this is why the solution to prevent this would be to stop hanging around these sort of people.
of course i agree that if all eles fails, isolation would be the last resort because isolation would still be much better as compared to being one of them.
most great men of the past were lonely as well but i believe it's because they could not find someone of their equal to mix around with as they were too...GREAT to begin with and most people that were of their equal eventually became one of their enemies and of the 2, only one remains and that is the greater being of the great.
there is a chinese saying, a direct translation to english would be "a hill cannot contain two tigers" meaning that there is never enough room for two greater beings on any one side so dont be surprised if a greater being goes against your ideas, principles or philosophy as it is a normal thing in which greater beings do so as to enforce the things that they believe in and to display their status as a greater being by applying critical thinking.
i personally believe that like a coin that has two sides, there can never be a right answer to everything except for proven theories in maths, science etc. things that you study like business, psychology and especially economics are all streotyping that the general behavior would act in a certain way but everybody/every case is unique in its own ways.
on isolation there are a couple of reasons to convince yourself on why you should do so.
1. they are undermining your knowledge,ability and authority as a greater being than they are.
2. they lower your self esteem and confidence.
3. they bring you down to THEIR level.
failing to bring you down to their level by force would start a new kind of warfare. not exactly new because its been used in the vietnam war and by the terrorists but its the new that would take you by surprise.
and if you guessed it, you are correct it's called guerrilla warfare. by that i mean by toying with your emotions and feelings such as guilt, they would be able to attack you right where they wanted you to be and it's a tactic used by opponents againsts foes that were too powerful to attack head on.
personally i have met many of these lesser beings and they can be grouped into different categories.
1. the pretentious kind that might appear to be like a greater being but they are actually not, they are just acting to be like one.
danger level against this one is high because you might not know how to differenciate a real and a fake one just like spotting real and fake rolex watches, you would only know till you tested it.
2. not the pretentious kind but are trying to be one.
danger level is medium as they are not with any hostile intent such as making use of you and such but is still dangerous as they could influence you with their...trivial thoughts and ideas.
3. the real lesser beings, obviously oblivious to to whatevers happening around them and only cares about themselves. there are three types of people in this world. people who makes things happen, people who wonders what happened and the worst kind people who don't know what happened and can't be bothered.
danger level is low because you know who they really are but still of abit of danger level here because of the ability to influence you subconsciously.
4. the group, bunch of mixed lesser beings that have the ability to apply pressure on you into becoming one of them.
danger level VERY high. most great people are not born but made through process, influences, progress, environment and learning.
many great men were influenced and motivated at certain points of time in their life be it people around them, material needs satisfaction, ego or self esteem gratification or women.
the once potential greater beings can fall and become a lesser being easily with the power of influence. influence is a weapon used by many politicians especially during the times when Roman empire was vast,flourishing and one of the many great powers during their times. politicians then resorted to using influence as a means of ganging up against a common enemy where twisted words and treacherous lies were used against the poor soul.
look at the people around you and put an invisible marking on them indicating greater or lesser being and start weeding out the bad influences that might affect your life. a persons life span is short and there is only that much he can accomplish and perhaps if he is ambitious enough to want to leave a mark in history.
sometimes the best approach to this matter would be isolation. it can be best described like a illness, a contagious illness.
it/they can spread and influence you to be perhaps part of them and by the time you realise it, it would have been too late as you have already been integrated into one of them and their way of life that you would get too comfortable with it and by going against it would be like going against the norm.
lets give another simpler example for the lesser beings that might be reading this.
picture this, a classroom with a teacher and a bunch of students together. if the teacher said that "A" was the correct answer and all except one of the students agreed that "A" was the answer. the one smarter student knew that "B" was the correct answer instead of "A" but seeing that how so many people agreed on "A", that might influence him to believe otherwise that he is wrong and that he would eventually agree on "A" as well but with "B" as the correct answer on his mind.
this would be the basis on which my arguments lies. people influence one another not realising that they themselves might be wrong and the other party may actually be correct and this is why the solution to prevent this would be to stop hanging around these sort of people.
of course i agree that if all eles fails, isolation would be the last resort because isolation would still be much better as compared to being one of them.
most great men of the past were lonely as well but i believe it's because they could not find someone of their equal to mix around with as they were too...GREAT to begin with and most people that were of their equal eventually became one of their enemies and of the 2, only one remains and that is the greater being of the great.
there is a chinese saying, a direct translation to english would be "a hill cannot contain two tigers" meaning that there is never enough room for two greater beings on any one side so dont be surprised if a greater being goes against your ideas, principles or philosophy as it is a normal thing in which greater beings do so as to enforce the things that they believe in and to display their status as a greater being by applying critical thinking.
i personally believe that like a coin that has two sides, there can never be a right answer to everything except for proven theories in maths, science etc. things that you study like business, psychology and especially economics are all streotyping that the general behavior would act in a certain way but everybody/every case is unique in its own ways.
on isolation there are a couple of reasons to convince yourself on why you should do so.
1. they are undermining your knowledge,ability and authority as a greater being than they are.
2. they lower your self esteem and confidence.
3. they bring you down to THEIR level.
failing to bring you down to their level by force would start a new kind of warfare. not exactly new because its been used in the vietnam war and by the terrorists but its the new that would take you by surprise.
and if you guessed it, you are correct it's called guerrilla warfare. by that i mean by toying with your emotions and feelings such as guilt, they would be able to attack you right where they wanted you to be and it's a tactic used by opponents againsts foes that were too powerful to attack head on.
personally i have met many of these lesser beings and they can be grouped into different categories.
1. the pretentious kind that might appear to be like a greater being but they are actually not, they are just acting to be like one.
danger level against this one is high because you might not know how to differenciate a real and a fake one just like spotting real and fake rolex watches, you would only know till you tested it.
2. not the pretentious kind but are trying to be one.
danger level is medium as they are not with any hostile intent such as making use of you and such but is still dangerous as they could influence you with their...trivial thoughts and ideas.
3. the real lesser beings, obviously oblivious to to whatevers happening around them and only cares about themselves. there are three types of people in this world. people who makes things happen, people who wonders what happened and the worst kind people who don't know what happened and can't be bothered.
danger level is low because you know who they really are but still of abit of danger level here because of the ability to influence you subconsciously.
4. the group, bunch of mixed lesser beings that have the ability to apply pressure on you into becoming one of them.
danger level VERY high. most great people are not born but made through process, influences, progress, environment and learning.
many great men were influenced and motivated at certain points of time in their life be it people around them, material needs satisfaction, ego or self esteem gratification or women.
the once potential greater beings can fall and become a lesser being easily with the power of influence. influence is a weapon used by many politicians especially during the times when Roman empire was vast,flourishing and one of the many great powers during their times. politicians then resorted to using influence as a means of ganging up against a common enemy where twisted words and treacherous lies were used against the poor soul.
look at the people around you and put an invisible marking on them indicating greater or lesser being and start weeding out the bad influences that might affect your life. a persons life span is short and there is only that much he can accomplish and perhaps if he is ambitious enough to want to leave a mark in history.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
upcoming plans after this term(sep 08)
in a blink of an eye it's nearly been one year, how time flies and the speed in which how people pass by you before you can even realise. during this one year i've learnt alot and these include a better understanding of people around me(through observation and experience) some of them nice but some of them..not that nice. it's always better to be focused on one thing that you are determined to do and finish than to focus on somebody or other thing that you are not confident of.
few years back i had this mindset built inside me telling me that most people are a waste of time and that i shouldn't commit too much because just a handful would do but during this one year i went against the very set of principles that i created within myself causing all these unnecessary torment and pain.
from yesterday i decided that i should stick to my old ways of doing things and that nothing and nobody would ever make me hesitate about doing so again.
as much as i could say i love her but i got to just forget it and move on because i believe that what's mine is mine and that i deserve much better treatment.
WILL BE DONE BEFORE END OF THIS YEAR
devote more time to finish reading the books that i started
get the driving licence
taking up japanese language oourse
learn to cook(real meals and be a better househusband)
start getting preparations for marriage
business plan preparations for several business proposals that i've had
TO BE DONE NEXT YEAR
hopefully married by then
start planning on further studies,i'm thinking of either law or psychology(not the clinical kind but leaning more towards business)
business setup
few years back i had this mindset built inside me telling me that most people are a waste of time and that i shouldn't commit too much because just a handful would do but during this one year i went against the very set of principles that i created within myself causing all these unnecessary torment and pain.
from yesterday i decided that i should stick to my old ways of doing things and that nothing and nobody would ever make me hesitate about doing so again.
as much as i could say i love her but i got to just forget it and move on because i believe that what's mine is mine and that i deserve much better treatment.
WILL BE DONE BEFORE END OF THIS YEAR
devote more time to finish reading the books that i started
get the driving licence
taking up japanese language oourse
learn to cook(real meals and be a better househusband)
start getting preparations for marriage
business plan preparations for several business proposals that i've had
TO BE DONE NEXT YEAR
hopefully married by then
start planning on further studies,i'm thinking of either law or psychology(not the clinical kind but leaning more towards business)
business setup
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
holy shit
it's been months since i updated this...blog. im actually surprised that there are friends who actually read things that i wrote and actually cared. typical people who actually thinks that its just some crap and rantings then too bad i probably don't care what you think about me or my ideals anyway.
anyway the relaxed term 2 just ended and i got my first term's results. it wasn't as good as i expected and im not exactly thrilled about it but positive thinking tells me that at least i passed and that i should work harder for the next 2 terms. 3 modules and 1 dissertation to go.
recently i've been feeling tired both physically and emotionally reason being that i haven't really been juicing my brain for weird ideas and concepts be it for business or personal life and that makes me tired because i find that i become energetic whenever i get my brain started as it makes me excited at the thought of something nice,fun or interesting.
oh well im pretty disappointed with myself lately because i havent been acting like the person that i was before. i need someone to wake me up.
i hope to be more honest with my feelings and my emotions.
anyway the relaxed term 2 just ended and i got my first term's results. it wasn't as good as i expected and im not exactly thrilled about it but positive thinking tells me that at least i passed and that i should work harder for the next 2 terms. 3 modules and 1 dissertation to go.
recently i've been feeling tired both physically and emotionally reason being that i haven't really been juicing my brain for weird ideas and concepts be it for business or personal life and that makes me tired because i find that i become energetic whenever i get my brain started as it makes me excited at the thought of something nice,fun or interesting.
oh well im pretty disappointed with myself lately because i havent been acting like the person that i was before. i need someone to wake me up.
i hope to be more honest with my feelings and my emotions.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
8-9 years later
well my dad mentioned that he probably won't be continuing the business after the contract with the government ends due to youngsters in the family not being interested in the poultry business and it started me thinking if it would be possible for me to carry it on after that.
i personally think that its interesting and that i could continue from there on.if i remember correctly,my dad was also in his mid or late 20s when he took over the business from my grandparents and now im thinking whether i can be as successful as my dad or even outshine him.
i find business interesting in the sense that nothing is stagnant and that its dynamic. your position and market changes due to uncertainty and events happening around the globe. i like challenges,i enjoy doing things that are out of my comfort zone and i certainly enjoy the aftermath of my work. well everything beats having a 8-5 job as i find that things that are preditable in life is boring and it makes me feel as if life is...meaningless in that aspect.
anyway for now im going to take a step at a time and see how things go but i intend to learn more from my dad and see if im really ready for this.
i personally think that its interesting and that i could continue from there on.if i remember correctly,my dad was also in his mid or late 20s when he took over the business from my grandparents and now im thinking whether i can be as successful as my dad or even outshine him.
i find business interesting in the sense that nothing is stagnant and that its dynamic. your position and market changes due to uncertainty and events happening around the globe. i like challenges,i enjoy doing things that are out of my comfort zone and i certainly enjoy the aftermath of my work. well everything beats having a 8-5 job as i find that things that are preditable in life is boring and it makes me feel as if life is...meaningless in that aspect.
anyway for now im going to take a step at a time and see how things go but i intend to learn more from my dad and see if im really ready for this.
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